On The Otherside of The Cruel World That We Fucking Lived In

I got myself drowning in emotion and feeling useless because I couldn’t do anything while educating myself about the history of Nakba and what’s happening in the world right now. This time I want to write about what has been worrying me lately.

Live in agony and fear about losing their family, friends, people, home, and their motherland. I couldn't believe how would they even get food or basic needs like water and hygiene stuff. My heart is truly breaking. I remember in 2014 back in the day I was 12, my Mom led the prayer with me, and after that, we prayed for more than 1 hour praying for the people in Gaza and the Palestinian people. I cried because my mom cried along the pray. I didn’t know what was happening at that time, I was 12 years old, and I didn’t even know the whole history of Gaza. I just found out that the Palestinian people were being colonized and bombed by Israel and didn’t know what was behind that story. Nakba, I just learned about that 1948 for these couple of days.

It keeps getting worse and worse right, I see a couple of journalists posting about what’s happening, and I see children are dead, trapped in the rubble of houses, bleeding, injured, trembling, sick, traumatized, and even dead.

I can’t imagine how difficult it was to be there, I saw on the journalist's posts, several people walking to evacuate to the south. This is very sick, the world went crazy, and Israel is insane. Imagine lots of children, old people, sick people in wheelchairs, and dead babies, had to walk on foot and evacuate to south Gaza some of them held a stick with a white cloth which they held and carried as the crowds walked, it’s the symbolism of surrender. This is Maddening.

I’m angry, sad, and feel useless. Honestly, I don’t know what to feel, I feel like I really can’t bear it, there is a feeling of regret in myself that every day I can still eat and drink and have my basic needs met while on the other side of the world, there is still a war going on, on the other side of the world, 2023, thousands of innocent civilians have to be the victims of stupid irresponsible Israeli fucking government making stupid propaganda. 2023, It’s still there was colonization, a fucking genocide. I reflect and think, whether I deserve to live this life comfortably.

Let’s pray for the people in Gaza and Palestine so that they can return to living a decent life and please never stop talking and spreading logical information, spreading kindness, and humanizing each other.

#CEASEFIRENOW

2023, 13th of November

22.19 p.m.