#1: on being 19 thoughts
It’s been one month since I haven’t seen my first friend/ex-coworker at my ex-workplace after I resigned.
Daffa, 20, on his year 5 majoring in Management at one of the universities in Depok.
For me, Daffa’s life is just somewhat a juvenile mediocre who is still obedient to the rules although he doesn’t really wanna do that. he’s just naughty in the mouth sometimes, and that’s really symbolizing young people in general. or maybe I can call it “he’s living his life”.
Daffa, his life is just going to uni, working, going to his bike garage, and coffee shops. for him, a social media prestige event is an achievement or somehow I would call that he must be seen “doing something” on the internet.
Daffa’s hobby is just his motorbike, all points and all parts of his motorbike are his hobbies. Making friends with asphalt and the smell of exhaust is also his hobby.
A year before he worked at our workplace, every Sunday morning he would like to spend his day going to Puncak in Bogor or be present at the Jabodetabek motorbike an iconic pit point at Puncak aka Bukit Pelangi, or they call it BP. I don’t know what BP looks like, but as far as I know, there are a lot of motorbike clubs or motorbike “kids” taking pictures or socializing, to meet and talk about all of their motorbikes.
Sometimes I’m a little bit happy talking to Daffa’s in the office. He’s two years above me. he was born in 2000. So if you calculate his age now it’s so much easier than those born in an odd number of years.
For me, Daffa is a friend who is pretty realistic and follows the “Generation Now” times. I don’t want to say that he’s alay or anything but honestly, I like how he describes his perspective on life as his personality just exactly like his age.
I’ve always been told that my mind is not compatible with my age, I know that age is just a number, but I hate the fact that even my face doesn’t represent my age, sad. Me, in young people’s lives, is just an additional position, not something that “stands out”
I once asked some of my friends to be giving me an opinion about my thoughts of life as a young person who should be living in this generation who is always being called clueless and clumsy. yall made me really confused about my entire existence.
Shouldn’t life be more considerate about Love?
Being in this teenage era it could have been more innocent, like, no need for a much of consideration to something and doesn’t have to be serious about everything. There’s no need to be just like an adult who thinks that life is just about career, future, and environment, right?
have fun as if you hang out with your friends, late at night, without thinking about what’s gonna happen in the morning after. As if you’re really used to urge yourself to make the most of the present time and give a little thought about the future.
the innocent that I mentioned was just more like, let’s say that you really don’t give a damn single fuck if you’re confessing your love to someone whatever their answer is. You should be okay, be fine about not knowing anything. All of the “what-ifs” are not really necessary. Not all of the questions have an answer.
Sometimes I think as a teenager, don’t we have to embrace our stupidity or be excited to feel new about every experience without feeling ashamed about that?
If we’re talking about the context of love. for example, if we don’t know what love is, should we try to find out and ask why what how and think about wanting to do it if we want to know the definition of love without knowing what would be happening in the future?
like, as we live in this era, we should be giving “the fuck future, I live my own life for today”’s energy, don't we?
and I always think that whether I’m being adults too early or just always feel worried about what happens next (counting for a long period of time).
don’t we as teenagers, just like, should be giving a damn fuck about simple things?
I’ve been observed a lot of us, young people, want things that are easy and instantly fast. the simplest way of thought or the simplest way of act, (maybe you can connect that back to the context of careless, clumsy, brutal, and arbitrarily that I said in the first paragraphs.) that somehow kinda describes most of our generation.
The problem is, aren’t we at our age should enjoy and care less about things? we should never worry about what will happen in the future if we don’t concern to be just like an actual adults.
“Live your own life, and don’t think about how old you are and feel like in a rush to do something. Everyone has their own way of growing up.” -Jasmine Adnin Maela Shofy
and some people say that I should not think that much. Start seeing good friends around that really care about me, and spend more time with them.
Daffa is an example that I have to live in the present time. by the term of living, it is enjoying life and being present.